Music: Ryan Joshua Soule
Sun fades, it never goes away
Some shade, the sky becomin' grey
One day, I'm hopin' I don't feel this way, but
Some say, there's beauty in the pain
I don't see it, I'm stuck inside the struggle
There is not light, I'm peakin' outside the rubble
Here I am, secluded in a bubble
I try to get up, I stumble
Wonderin' mind, I'm in trouble
So I say don't look back, just keep it in the past
Relapse I feel it slippin' back
Just hold on, you don't know how strong you are, or
How far that you have come along
So I say don't look back, just keep it in the past
Relapse I feel it slippin' back
I don't think that I can take anymore
Already shattered, I don't think that I can break anymore
I can feel it slip beneath me
Kicking and screaming 'cross the line
I can feel it slip beneath me
Up in my head I'm terrified
No matter where I'm at in life, I wanna run
I'd rather keep busy than look at what I've become
Manic depression 'bout to pop off like a loaded gun
To my illness I don't wanna succumb
So I say don't look back, I'm buried by my past
Relapse, still feel it slippin' back
Not sure what I have left to give, acceptin' it
Don't think I have much left to live
I can feel it slip beneath me
Kicking and screaming 'cross the line
I can feel it slip beneath me
Up in my head I'm terrified
Holding me back won't hold me down
I'm under attack with my head in the clouds
So believe me, I'm trying
I'm scared to death, outta breath and I'm falling apart
I can feel it slip beneath me
Kicking and screaming 'cross the line
I can feel it slip beneath me
Up in my head I'm terrified
I can feel it slip beneath me
Kicking and screaming 'cross the line
I can feel it slip beneath me
Up in my head I'm terrified
So I say don't look back, I'm buried by my past
And everytime I try to get up, I feel it slippin' back
I know that I got all this trauma I don't wanna un-pack
I only do when I rap, I know that these are the facts
I gotta take control of myself before I end up ruined
I gotta re-evaluate the life that I am pursuin'
I gotta pull myself out of it, I'm runnin' outta time
Don't wanna look at myself, I'm too terrified