My life started when I
Went for a jog
And spotted you in the park
Sitting with a dog
So I stopped and asked,
"can I pet your dog?"
And so there we were, me and this golden retriever,
Basking in the abundance of sun austin provides and
Suddenly you blurted out,
"this isn't my dog.
Actually, it's my friend's dog, sheila
I'm taking care of her while he's away
She's on a lot of medication."
And I laughed and you laughed
Saying you didn't want to be found out
When you asked me to coffee
And there was no dog
I said yes
And you said
"I'm Jase, what's your name?"
And I heard the perfect opportunity
To be someone else entirely
Free from my history
For one single cup of coffee
I would be natalie
Obviously, that's not how it went down. one cup of
Coffee turned into two bottles of wine, three
Desserts and staying up talking until four in the
Morning. too late to backpedal, too good not to keep going.
It felt like my life but a better version
With you in my life I was a better person
I heard music in the words you were saying
Melodies with no band playing
For the first time I was
In love
And I loved
Who I was with you.
All the mundane shit I used to hate like
Recycling plastic and flossing everyday
Making breakfast, paying bills
Watering the plants on our windowsill
Was invigorated with your sense of wonder.
Pillow talk, afternoon walks
Holding hands in the parking lot
Of home depot, dealing with inevitable
Misfortunes that were barely manageable
Like that time we accidentally hit a squirrel with your car.
That was an unfortunate anecdote
But do you know what I mean?
It felt like my life but a better version
With you in my life I was a better person
I heard music in the words you were saying
Melodies with no band playing
For the first time I was
In love
And I loved
Who I was with you.
My parents finally tracked me down
After years of jumping from town to town
They found
You and me
Men in suits at our front door
Asking you about Judith ford
And I knew
Instantly
They say before you die
Your whole life flashes before your very eyes
Well it didn't the first time
But this time I heard
Each and every lie
I'd ever told you
I tried to cling to
The life I'd made
Together with you
So I did the only thing I knew how to
I denied who I was because
I wanted to keep my life, but the better version
Natalie, your wife, she was a better person
I memorized your voice and how you say goodbye
But you never said goodbye, you never said goodbye
And I held onto our life
And who I was with you
Who I was with you
Who I was with you.