All I'm seeing is red.
I'm caught inside of my head.
I need to learn how to let go, and just take a breath
This demon inside me.
Is vicious and frightening.
No remorse for the ones I love.
Will he feed again? Will I let him in?
Paralysed,
I'm living with a nightmare.
Tearing apart my loved ones
I know it's not fair.
Tighten the rope, I'm giving up before it's too late.
I start to choke, I'm blacking out but I awaken.
Is it all part of a nightmare?
I'm wide awake, but not in control.
Seems too overwhelming.
To shake free from his hold.
I feel weak at the knees.
But I'm tired of losing sleep.
The only way I'll break free.
Fight the nightmare fighting me.
I tried to kill myself December 17th
(What's come of me?)
The person that I once was almost got the better of me
I'm paralysed
I'm living with a nightmare.
Tearing apart my loved ones
I know it's not fair.
Tighten the rope, I'm giving up before it's too late.
I start to choke, I'm blacking out but I awaken.
I hope you know, you brought out the worst in me.
I push you all away,
To keep my mind at ease.
The nightmare comes and takes my strength
I feel I'm caving in.
I'm lost within my thoughts,
Deaths come to collect my soul.
The reaper looks and turns away,
Itβs now a story to be told.
Paralysed,
I'm living with a nightmare.
Tearing apart my loved ones
I know it's not fair.
Tighten the rope, I'm giving up before it's too late.
I start to choke, I'm blacking out but I awaken.
I can't go living with the way I feel.
When you have put me through so much hell.
The thought of heaven is so unreal,
When I've been living through so much hell.