Lyrics: Jonathon Quiles
Music: Jonathon Quiles
Yeah, fake people in my life, they're all around me
And fake love seems to be all they're offering
Bottom feeders in disguise tryna harm me
Paranoia's the only thing it's caused me
I feel so alone on this path I'm walking
It's just me and god and we keep on talking
I'm begging him please get these demons off me
Can't fight them anymore cuz it's exhausting
I just wanna feel normal without trauma attached
I just wanna feel my heart a piece of its detached
I just wanna feel some real love that isn't an act
I just wanna feel alive and snap out of this trance
These ups and downs, overwhelm, until I collapse
There's no one to talk to, so I spill in my raps
I'm missing the old me, somebody bring him back
In search of anyone sharing these feeling I have, damn
Misfortunes to fortunes "inspiring"
They say just be happy, I tried to be
I think my systems needs re-wiring
Cuz every other day I am spiraling
In a dark abyss and it feels like home
Cuz it's the only place that I've known
Suppressing my feeling that I don't show
Until I'm bitter and I self loath damn, yeah, look
Yeah, I been broken
But look who I became, yeah I been chosen
I manifested my dreams and I'm still goin
I'm passing up everybody from school that I've grown with
So when you diss I'm convince, that you don't know shit
You spent time at the bars, well I spent mine devoted
To my craft and skills, I doubled down and I honed them
Now I'm on the rise, and y'all look so hopeless
So despite my feelings of depression
Inside my hell lies a lesson
You can visualize your dreams and manifest them
Just realize that your mind is a weapon
And sometimes it can flip any second
It can make the strongest ones feel threatened
It can make the alive ones feel deaden
Point is the mind shapes you if you let it
Started from the bottom, my dream was feeling impossible
But now I'm at a level where I am feeling unstoppable
The fruits of my labor are here and they taste phenomenal
Breaking all of my records while breaking thru every obstacle
Coulda quit a long time ago, but that just isn't in me
Cuz even when I am losing, I always feel like winning
Whenever I hit the end, I'm excited for new beginnings
Inspired by my potential, my drives an ultimate feeling
I'm breaking thru every ceiling, my music is the new healing
I used to hate saying goodbye, but now I am screaming good riddance
To anybody or critic, who doesn't fit in my vision
I always remain persistent, found purpose to my existence
Don't value people's opinions, I value moments I'm living
Was mentally in a prison, so breaking out was the mission
God really granted permission and put me in this position
He's guiding all my decisions, I'm feeling high in my spirits, I'm
Preaching things that a pastor don't preach
Teaching things that a teacher don't teach
They really thought I would fall and sink
But I haven't even hit my peak
And I won't stop climbing until I reach
The summit, look down and all I see
Is those who doubted all underneath
What a view, ooh that's the view I need, I
Can manifest every single thing I imagine
I wouldn't know this life if didn't pursue my passion
I'm writing this on a flight, while I'm staring down at planet
Realizing that I'm alone but this solitude had to happen
My friends were holding me back, I cut em off and I vanished
They didn't wanna evolve, they were to content being stagnant
They were heading towards a dead end, I had foresight they were lacking
Now I am living their dreams, they see me now and can't stand it, I
Guess they didn't believe
Envy in the air when they see me achieve
RIP your goals, I'm watching all of you grieve
Money can't buy you levels that I've reached
But clown me, diss me, oh well
My success reminds you, you failed
I can tell, keep crying, dog
Can't look down, when I'm rising, dog
Yeah, haha
Yeah, yeah
Can't look down when I'm rising, dog
Can't look down when I'm rising, dog
My rise