Tsk tsk tsk tsk
New coat
Thin gloves
Breath hangs like a question
I rehearse my name
On the train window glass
Office door humming
Fluorescent hum on my skin
Two handsome strangers nod
I fake a laugh
Walk in
I feel dizzy tizzy
Spinning on my first day
Cold air in my chest
Too many words I can't say
I feel dizzy
Trying to stand
Trying to stay
You say it's just the weather
But my heart's in the way
Coffee cup trembling
My badge twists on its string
Their small talk circles
About weekends and little things
One joke cuts sideways
I smile
But it burns
I count the tiles
Til the ceiling starts to turn
I feel dizzy tizzy
Spinning on my first day
Cold air in my chest
Too many words I can't say
I feel dizzy
Trying to stand
Trying to stay
You say it's just the weather
But my heart's in the way
Maybe it's the air
Too sharp
Maybe I'm just scared to start oh
Maybe it's their eyes on me
Or something I can't name
But every step down this hallway
Feels like stepping off a plane
I feel dizzy tizzy
Spinning on my first day
Cold air in my chest
Too many words I can't say
I feel dizzy
But I'm still here
Come what may
Let the room keep on turning
I'll make my way someday