Lyrics: Rachel Brassfield Music: Rachel Brassfield/Louis Hahlweg I don't wanna go Put it off until I know I let it burn real slow I love a toxic kind of glow I've been pretending that I'm healthy I don't want no one to help me So I smile for a selfie - post! A suicidal soul is stealthy - mostly I am cynical but it's getting critical Reality is after me, might need a miracle Ahh Ahh Life's been getting kind of hectic (I ****ing hit the wall) My skin's not feeling protective (I wanna rip it off) I'm in trouble now I left it (I'm gonna leave it all) To fester, yessir it's all gone septic I've learned resentment is a bitch (Imagine that) I didn't want to scratch the itch (And so it sat) I've been waiting for your pitch (I'm up to bat) Kicking my heels I dug out a ditch (Guess where I'm at) Yeah I'm lying in it I'm ****ing dying in it Reality is catching me I need to cry a minute Ahh Ahh Life's been getting kind of hectic (I ****ing hit the wall) My skin's not feeling protective (I wanna rip it off) I'm in trouble now I left it (I'm gonna leave it all) To fester, yessir it's all gone septic Somebody call a doctor Somebody call a doctor What is it gonna cost her? Oh ****, I think we lost her Life's been getting kind of hectic (I ****ing hit the wall) My skin's not feeling protective (I wanna rip it off) I'm in trouble now I left it (I'm gonna leave it all) To fester, yessir it's all gone septic