Lyrics: Thomas Bard/Luis Oscar Santos Figueroa/Tijn de Boer
Music: Thomas Bard/Jozef van der Veen/Julian Vahle
Been staring at my phone for a minute
Trynna find the words to lay down
How I want you to be around now
But everything I write down feels bitter
I should've stayed drinking downtown
At least I had some people around
But now everything's fading away
Why do I just keep hiding this pain
I keep on saying I'm fine, I'm fine
But baby I'm not, no baby I'm not
I tried to get to your mind on facetime
But now you hang up, because I act drunk
Now I'm heavy headed, staring at my bedroom wall
Knowing that I have to lose it all
I keep on saying I'm fine, I'm fine
But baby I'm not, I'm ****ing messed up
Overthinking doesn't really cut it
Even though I'm sobering up
I'll never be sober enough to say
"I confess that I couldn't manage"
Too obsessed that I took the damage
Yeah, I wish I wasn't this jealous, careless
But now everything's fading away
Why do I just keep hiding this pain
I keep on saying I'm fine, I'm fine
But baby I'm not, no baby I'm not
I tried to get to your mind on facetime
But now you hang up, because I act drunk
Now I'm heavy headed, staring at my bedroom wall
Knowing that I have to lose it all
I keep on saying I'm fine, I'm fine
But baby I'm not, I'm ****ing messed up
But baby I'm not, no baby I'm not
No baby I'm not, no baby I'm not
Over you-u-woo-woo-woo, oooh~
No baby I'm not, no baby I'm not
Everytime it's the same
I start to care when it's all too late
And now I'm heavy headed, staring at my bedroom wall
Knowing that I have to lose it all
I keep on saying I'm fine, I'm fine
But baby I'm not, I'm ****ing messed up