Lyrics: Fuat Okatan
Music: Kris Kraanen/Lourens van der Zwaag
Sometimes you just gotta let things go I suppose
Sh*t, you know I think about things a lot
But what’s the point of overthinking, right?
It’s not like it’s gonna change the situation or something
Just let it go
Thought I just lost myself
Wouldn’t be hard to tell
Wish I could right my wrongs
Can’t hide my pain that well
Wish that I could see along the line
My secrets caused a lot of lying
They tried to see how I had lost my mind
Can’t blame you for wanting to see my demise
Especially when you looked into my eyes and
I blatantly lied to gain my desires
As much as I wanted to go back in time,
Take off the mask that revealed my disguise
Ended up doing the same shit rewind
To repeat all the things that had made me expire
The worth that I carry that I call my pride
Isn’t worth anything when I keep on deciding
If I try to move forward will I be more aware
And will I think twice about who I offend
Let’s be honest you can’t keep everybody a friend
The world that we live in is only made for them
Chorus:
If you don’t know what to say
I wish for you to heal your heart before it drowns in pain
If you don’t know what to do
I got some gold inside my heart
I hope you see it too
Counting my blessings I’m shouting my efforts
Remember they told me I wasn’t attractive
I wouldn’t amount to nothing you’re right
Cause it turned out to be nothing you could imagine
I Talked to my demons I found them distracted
I’m missing those moments that made it apparent
I wasn’t gifted yet I build up my talent
And started channeling my anger through rapping
Knowing I’m going up out of my ways
to show you I’m still going out to escape,
Fighting my demons I’m frightened by healing
But nothing works when you’re hiding your pain
I’m screaming I needed some help with retreating
My memory shattered my self perception
You left me at self destruct and now it seems Like I’m almost at a reinvention
I’m growing I noticed I’m seeing
I changed
Reflections around me distort my presence
Knowing I lost a few people around me they look at me now like I forgot I am a treasure
I never knew which direction I was headed I wrote these pages and created my heavens
I managed to stay on the edge of my message
I should’ve been dead by all of my actions
Where I’m going I don’t know
When I’m by myself and feel alone
Some days are dark, my eyes are closed
When all that I showed was nothing but gold instead your remember the pain I exposed
Chorus:
If you don’t know what to say
I wish for you to heal your heart before it drowns in pain
If you don’t know what to do
I got some gold inside my heart
I hope you see it too
Where we’re going we don’t know
I was gone after shows trying to find a way to get you back in your hopes
Where we’re going we don’t know
I was gone after lows trying to find a way to get some hope in my soul
If I try to move forward will I be more aware
And will I think twice about who I offend
Let’s be honest you can’t keep everybody a friend
The world that we live in is only made for them