Lyrics: jayden y dumont
Music: jayden y dumont
Entry 1
These cuts on my wrist they ripe I swear
'Cause they sometimes make me better
Dying just to see you again
So I'm tired of writing letters to you
Can't express myself, I always choke on my own words
Can't explain what's going on, all I know is that it hurts
I can't do this no more without you
Baby you're my rose, without you-
Regret, all I cared and loved you
But I ****ed it up and now I gotta hurt
Lost the only thing I loved
Completely was my fault
Myself I can't keep safe
You know it's all my fault because you didn't have a say in it
I **** everything up, but I'm just so tired of saying it
If you were here you'd be disappointed, but I can't sing to no one else
And I swear I'm just so tired that I might just kill myself
Enry 2
Too many thoughts up in my head
Swear no one understands
But there's no one that will listen
Now you seen the cause and it fled to my skin
Nervous, hate feeling like this, huh
People saying this is a phase, haha
15, but do I know that? Hh do you?
Can't rid the expression off my face
My friend tried to tell me that it's okay
My wrist tells me that it's all my fault
Might call my friends a d**khead, egotistical, act like they know it all
And you don't know enough
I just want to fade away
Sometimes feels like this life is a game, I don't wanna play
(love you evvls)
Entry 3
Voices in my head again
My ultimatums made up
Stuck inside my bed again
I wanna pretend, but I can't anymore
(I've so far been questioning, but the days gone by, and I cannot decide what I—)
(Man, this shit is so dumb, I got people on my side, but for a while I've been done)
And it might sound cliche, but for a while I've been numb to it
(1, 2, 3, 4-)
Entry 4
[Verse]
Maybe she likes me
Maybe she’s toying with me
Falling in love is a tricky one for me
I trust you, but don’t wanna get ****ed up
You heard all my secrets
I like your responses
Though I wanna see this
The pressure feels awful
Text you and delete it
It’s rainy outside
Gave you my jacket in case you needed it
She won’t hear this
Entry 6
[Verse]
(You have no heart)
I'm getting bored of this
Move on to better things
(Move on to better things)
My best friends always end up becoming my worst enemies
(Move on to better things)