Lyrics: Jadeyn Taylor
Music: Jadeyn Taylor
Oh hey, it's me again.
And while I knew your time's so quickly spent,
I figured this would be a great time to misunderstand me.
I used to beg and plead, but you sat there ever silently.
'Cause you can't hear it, won't stand to hear it.
So I'll shout this behind your back,
But whisper carefully planned facts to the eyes that stare beyond my own.
I'll tell these eyes I share with you all of my tales poisoned with truth, force them down so I can watch you choke.
I'm not who you think I am, if you think of me at all.
In that callus ground of loneliness, you've planted my upward fall.
You've let hate blossom, now you cannot recognize.
If you'd only shared your eyes, your eyes, you share with mine.
I wish your silence came from hate, that at least I know why I'm to blame.
But a fool I'd stay to pray within a drought to drown in the rain.
So fine, I'll find the rage to scorch out on my own.
And in my wreckage may you burn upon your throne forged from unbloodied stones.
Do you see yourself in me, so your inner harm finds somewhere else to be.
The reflection stings so rejection brings, a mirrored shame that's shared between our pair of frames.
It seems to me that I have always been the problem.
Though I'd wish to solve it, foolishly I've gone and charred each star that's fallen.
I'm not who I think I am, when you think you've seen it all.
In this frozen state of apathy, I've blossomed with every flaw.
To hate I've fallen, and I now can't recognize, your eyes that you despise, the eyes you share with mine.
This feels wrong, it's not playing out right.
How am I colder now upon a bridge I chose to ignite?
Am I all wrong? It doesn't feel like it should.
This hollow triumph doesn't fill the pain I thought it would.
I've spent so long, why do I pity you now.
You've yet to change, so in your place I've learned to torture myself.
How could you be so blind? You close your eyes but open mine.
I hate the way you made me hate myself for sharing eyes!
You're not who you think you are, and I wish I never knew.
I don't wanna see the irony, that you hate me for being new.
Pushed me to walk beneath the starless skies!
Because I'll never shine as bright as the light of your eye.
What good is it to even try?
You'll never hear or see or face all the part of you you despise come to life, standing right before your eyes in spite, reminding both of us have wished on a starless night!
You can try as you might.
You can lie, fantasize.
But we both see your eyes.
Your eyes in mine.