Lyrics: hannah hausman
Music: hannah hausman
[Verse 1]
Retrace my steps
Collapse my thoughts
I’ll meet you right back
Where we started
Thought you’d be here
But you’re still
Trapped in my apartment
And I’m outside
Freezing in the rain
Feels like you’ve been gone
For days and I'm
Sick of bottling emotions
Automated coping this
Chemical erosion
On my skin
Burning through the moment
God why am I hoping?
God what am I hoping for?
[Pre-Chorus]
Don’t wanna want you
Like I want you but I want you and I
Don’t know why I can’t feel a thing
If it’s not for you, maybe
One kiss won’t hurt?
We’ll forget that you’re with her
Know we shouldn’t but I’m selfish
Been so long since I’ve felt
(shit)
[Chorus]
We’ll write it off as
A platonic interaction
I’ll be your mistake
You’ll bе the love
Of my ****ing life!
Turn down thе lights again
It feels so good to feel again
Maybe I love you? or
I only want what I can’t-I can’t–
No need to talk
It’s a platonic interaction
I’ll be your mistake
You’ll be the love
Of my ****ing life!
Cut off my oxygen
Anything to feel again but
Don’t say you love me cause
I only want what I can’t have!
[Verse 2]
What’s left to say?
Won’t speak my thoughts cause
You’ll read 'em anyway &
We live in different states
I’ll overstay my welcome
Should’ve left at 2 am
Now it’s 6 am instead &
I’m lying-lying-lying in your (bed)
Filling her space for the night
(Am I ruining your?)
I hate that I don’t even mind
(Am I ruining your life?)
Filling her space for the night
(Am I ruining?)
I hate that I don’t even mind
Am I ruining your life?
[Pre-Chorus]
Don’t wanna want you
Like I want you but I want you and I
Don’t know why I can’t feel a thing
If it’s not for you-for you–
One kiss won’t hurt?
We’ll forget that you’re with her
No wait, we should get some sleep instead
Get-get-get some sleep instead
[Bridge]
Am I?
Am I?
Am I ruining?
Am I?
Am I ruining?
Fall in love?
Am I ruining?
[Chorus]
We’ll write it off as
A platonic interaction
I’ll be your mistake
You’ll be the love
Of my ****ing life!
Turn down the lights again
It feels so good to feel again
Maybe I love you?
Or I only want what I can’t-can’t-can’t–
I only want what I can’t–