Lyrics: Joshua Travis
Music: Joshua Travis
I’m the disease
I am the cancer that’s eating me
(Eating me)
Down on my knees
Reeling in disbelief
Searching for answers that always seem
So out of reach
Did I ever have a choice in this?
Now all that I am left with is
Disdain
Myself and my selfish ways
Left to reflect on the choices that
made me this way
Paralyzed
Suffering inside my shell
I recognize the truth is
I’m the one to blame
Wasting away
Tracing the pattern slowly
Losing track of days
I can feel it, it’s weighing down on me
(Weigh me down)
Nothing to lose
Nothing to hold on too
Nothing to put my faith into
to see me through
If I ever had a choice in this
I would not be so consumed with
Disdain
Myself and my selfish ways
Left to reflect on the choices that
Made me this way
In vain
Over and over again
Forced to accept that my outcome
Will always be the same
Despite all my efforts
I’m not getting better
There’s something wrong with me
Crushed by the weight of regret
The fear that I have come undone
Left to reflect
Through my neglect
I’ve let myself become
Entombed in the silence