I don’t mean to leave you hanging all alone
It’s not that I don’t feel what you have shown
My heart’s wrapped tight behind a quiet wall
Afraid to answer when emotions start to fall
I can’t hold all the warmth you give to me
Too used to hiding from reality
Not mad at you, not tired of your side
Just scared to let my true feelings collide
I need my space to calm my restless mind
Not trying to leave your love behind
I fail to speak, I choose to step aside
It’s just my way to hide inside
I fade away not cause I don’t care
My fragile heart can’t bear the heavy air
I’m bad at showing how I truly feel
Running quiet is my only shield
I disappear to ease my inner strain
No cruel intent, no hidden pain
Forgive my cold and silent way
I’m just too scared to stay
I know you wait and feel confused inside
I see your feelings shining bright and wide
I wish I could respond the way you want
But old habits make my heart stay shut and haunt
Too used to walking in my lonely zone
Hard to let another soul take root and grow
I don’t want hurt you in the end
So I draw back before feelings bend
It’s never you that made me turn away
It’s my own fear that leads me to stray
I treasure every moment we have known
Just can’t break free from being alone
Silent drift, quiet retreat
This flawed heart is hard to meet
I know I let your hope deplete
I’m sorry, truly deep