the arrival

Lyrics: Yan Qing Music: Yan Qing I’ ve got friends here in Toronto who wanna move away they all say it with a sparkle, maybe the UK but I’ve got friends out there in London, who say the very same say they wanna live abroad, where it isn't wet and gray I've got friends out in the city who work away like slaves cause the floor is made of marble and it's a reputable name and they look upon the dreamers, romanticize the chase but i know a couple dreamers, and they all wish they got paid I've got friends who've never dated, but wanna be in love they' re on every application, tryna find the one  but the couples back form high school have just now broken up said they want the space to grow, learn to be alone for once And I used to be so tiny, I’d beg for me to grow now I'm well into my 20s and I'm far away from home somehow I think i got smaller, the more that i have grown I got everything I wanted but I am still left wanting more seems like we are all just contradictions in affliction over all of our small decisions that we’ve made up till now we’re always wondering how things could’ve been different if we chose a different route  and everyone is placing bets on these different destinations, thinking once the get to these places then they’ll figure it out but i'm left wondering now if we'll ever arrive or if it can be found? now it is almost graduation, I don't know what to do I don't wanna face the world, but i am also sick of school I don't wanna be employed, but I don't wanna be poor  I want routine that is stable but i'm always craving more but i look upon my mother who tells us that we're fine and my tired looking father, and my brother’s fragile mind and i come to a conclusion, that it's not a place or time it's in every conversation that I hold with them, that i know I' ve arrived