Falling, Falling

Rain arrives without a sound like a thought I didn't finish lying still but not quite here the floor forgets my weight I am a shape the water hasn't claimed some half-drawn outline counting the drops but they don't add up nothing I touch turns into worth floating just beneath the air no direction feels like home the emptiness is not unkind it only hums, it only hums maybe the rain knows how to fall and never needs a reason how to fill the hollow then disappear easy I could follow that rhythm down where the breathing goes thin let the flood be a doorway let the quiet come in all my mirrors look like windows tonight but the reflection won't turn on I'm half a dream I started to doubt a paper boat with no colour left my hands forget what they were for just drifting open, open somewhere between a breath and the deep I almost feel light still floating, no above, no below the rain writes circles on my skin the emptiness is getting softer now it only hums, it only hums maybe the rain knows how to fall and never needs a reason how to fill the hollow then disappear easy I could follow that rhythm down where the breathing goes thin let the flood be a doorway let the quiet come in if I dissolve, I won't be missed just water learning how to hold nothing a slow release, a letting-be the gentlest part of sinking maybe the rain knows something true how to let the body go how to fill the silence and then overflow I'll just follow that rhythm down where the thinking gets thin let the deep be a doorway let the falling begin rain keeps falling and I keep sinking a slow pull into the undertow it isn't weight, it isn't fear just gravity finding my shape at last falling, falling nothing to hold, nothing to break just the long quiet plunge into somewhere softer than I've been into somewhere so much softer than I've been