My hand shakes on the rail
At the top of the stairs
I count every breath
Like it might hold me there
Your name in my mouth
Like a stone I can't drop
I stand in the doorway
And I still don't stop
If I move, I might fall
If I stay, I might drown
So I lift up my chin
And I look at the crowd
My heart hits the floor
Then it climbs back again
I'm not fearless, I know
But I'm here, I'm here
I'm trying to be brave
I'm trying to be brave
With my knees in the light
And my voice in the flame
I'm trying to be brave
I'm trying to be brave
The room holds its breath
When I step to the mark
A glass in my hand
And a tremor in my heart
I thought courage was clean
Like a ribbon pulled tight
But it looks like a fight
That you win in the night
If I move, I might fall
If I stay, I might drown
So I lift up my chin
And I look at the crowd
My heart hits the floor
Then it climbs back again
I'm not fearless, I know
But I'm here, I'm here
I'm trying to be brave
I'm trying to be brave
With my knees in the light
And my voice in the flame
I'm trying to be brave
I'm trying to be brave
Let the drums go loud
Let the whole room see
Every crack in my armor
Is part of me
I don't need a crown
I don't need a sign
Just one steady step
At a time, at a time
I'm trying to be brave
I'm trying to be brave
With my knees in the light
And my voice in the flame
I'm trying to be brave
I'm trying to be brave
I'm trying to be brave