entry 02

I wish that I was out of my head And I wish that I could see all my friends Cause I just really understand that I have problems alone And every day is a ****ing blur and I don't know where to go I wish that I only looked to you When I'm stuck inside with nothing to do And every time I meet somebody, I wish I was cool And I don't really want to be here cause I still think of you Lack of an effort, lack of a pleasure Every day I wish, hoping for better But I know that it's not for isolation But I'm wanting to find my motivation I think I gotta make money because I think if I do I'm living like I'm successful but I know that it's the truth And I know of the pretentiousness that I feel I got in you And I want you to know that it is all cause of you A girl I've dated, that I loved Who took advantage and ****ed me up I drink too much and I don't stop And I think of doing hard to trust And I wish I never got the chance to meet you And I wish I had known better And I wish you were sorry so that I could forgive you But I'll never get that closure I wish that I was out of my head And I wish that I could see all my friends Cause I just really understand that I have problems alone And every day is a ****ing blur and I don't know where to go I wish that I only looked to you When I'm stuck inside with nothing to do And every time I meet somebody, I wish I was cool And I don't really want to be here cause I still think of you