The monster

Lyrics: Musa yusuf Music: Musa yusuf Alright I try to let people in but it feels weird But when I am down I pull myself up And just force a smile I wasn't always like this But my life's shit My dad will never call me a freaking bastard My mom gone be so freaking proud That her baby got a nice talent (Got a nice talent) But all this words are lies My mum is against me Got only one support from the whole family I'm no monster just a black sheep Familia say my name is Moses But I keep moving and poking no holes And keeping my nose clean Name maybe thaloner but I am not fully a loΓ±er ADHD got me seeking attention from my fams and loved ones But I am still me I guess Life's ****ed up But am still me Till this day I'm still okay And am thankful that's all I wanna say I Wasn't always like this but I had dibs Made my way to the top with no friends Knew no end when it came to life I was always lonely Name was thaloner But then it all changed when I started to let people in my life I stopped hurting myself with them knifes Got rid of my old self flames glitch is gone killed by my alter ego I tried to never let people in and they tried to nver let me be free Always in the corner Never a good brother But then talked with my sister And got a better offer Though it's still cold in my heart (Cold in my heart) All I wanted was the warmth of your touch (Warmth of your touch) Maybe it's ADHD But I still thank GOD (God) For blessing me With you all I remember every smell Every one Every friend Every face and still no way to forget it Shut myself out from the word Yet I feel like I could drop the world Lonely and never showing Always sad but never bold enough to say it I wasn't always like that but I always wear a mask over my ****ing face Whenever I don't feel safe