i need a hug

"You really put me at ease. So even if I die, please do your best to live on. See how this world will end and find out why it was created. Find out why scaredy-cats like me are here. And the meaning behind why we met. That is, my wish." ”I have a lot of time left. ” “Well, since it's Christmas, I'll hum a little tune." I-I-I know I got an issue It's been tryin' to get control of me I've been doin' work But I don't got no time for therapy I just wanna fade away I hate the way they stare at me I just need a shoulder, babe I just need someone to carry me (I know) I know I'm a loner, but I like that they don't notice me That way no one's sued if it gets out that I die horribly Mom said I should smile, she don't like that I think morbidly But it ain't my fault, it's all these demons deep inside of me W-When I was a kid, I had some friends, they all were there for me Now I just be stuck up in my room 'cause I'm a ****in' frea I don't even matter, I'm a **** up, I'm a wannab I can never **** witchu 'cause I don't even **** with m How could you love me? H-How could-how could you love me? Cut me the check, please She don't want me, she want money I know she forgot me She's moving on, and that cut deep How could you love me? How could you love me?? (I can-I can-) I can't tell the difference from my friends and all my enemies (Whoa) Lying to myself to hide away my evil energy (Energy——) You will never understand, so take a stand and let me be (Let me be) 'Cause I don't need opinions from a person wit your tendencies (Tendencies) S-So tell me I'm the reason why, tell me I'm the reason how! Everything inside my life is kind of ****ing freaking ou leaking out "All my blood is black," I keep on screaming out Trapped inside a cage inside my mind Oh wait, I see it now Hey I see the world below me (Below me) I hate it how you always control me, now (Control me) I'm better off just being the only (The only) You told me, I'm "better off lonely”