It's just as I expected
I've been sitting In my couch
Thinking bout what will happen
If everyone decides to go
(If everyone decides to go)
Sometimes I just curb and cry
Knowing that they'll leave
Even people that I know
(Even people that I know)
What will happen if you die
They will fake the mourn
And act as if they care
(And act as if they care)
I was born with this pain
My anxiety is plain
It is playing with my soul
(It is is playing with my soul)
Pain without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain
It's all about pain
(Mmm)My room full of tears
Help me face these fears
I've been popping pills
All of these years
Y'all look at my smile
Ain't non of it real
Ain't non of it real
And imma tell you all the time
Give me trust if you want mine
Give me love that's not a crime
Tell me what's the point if lying
'Cause I'm tired of faking it
Tired of living with all of this pain
I'm tired of acting fine
Coz I know inside I ain't
Double crossed so many times
I will never be the same
Back stabbed by my own friends
Some break the code for fame
But I'm used to all of this pain
I'm used to all this drama
I keep fighting for the better
'swear mama you'll see
My hard work
Pain without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain
It's all about pain
(Mmm)My room full of tears
Help me face these fears
I've been popping pills
All of these years
Y'all look at my smile
Ain't non of it real
Ain't non of it real
Look into my smile
Can't you see that it's all fake
I've been screaming to be freed
Please just help me(don't help me)
Pain in my voice
But i keep a smile on my face
I am not a happy person
I appear to be
I've been dying inside
Pain is all that I'm feeling
I've been suicidal ever since i was 8
I've been talking to the devil
He told me he waiting at the front gate
(With his arms open)
Look into my eyes can you see
How much I'm terrified
Always talk about my struggle
Nobody willing to listen
Over exaggeration
Ghost you faking it
You ain't meaning it
Take my life today
They'll read the text
And start deleting it
Pain without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain
It's all about pain
(Mmm)My room full of tears
Help me face these fears
I've been popping pills
All of these years
Y'all look at my smile
Ain't non of it real
Ain't non of it real
I look up in the sky
Could you please help me out
I'm tired of feeling numb