Lyrics: Jacob Loaiza
It's all for nothing
Everything I've done
Drowning under water
Thinking what have I become
I can't feel a thing
F**k I think I'm going numb
Maybe I'm insane
I'm just not enough
Crying out for help
But this isn't an act
I been broken
I feel hopeless damn it
This is a fact
It's like why you think I always spill my pain on these tracks
Because I'm running from myself
I write this shit to relax
Maybe I was made in somebody's imagination
Listen you don't know me
You're not in my situation
There's things going on here
That need examination
And nobody but me will ever know that information
I lost certain things that will never be restored
Everybody leaves me
My life's an open door
It saddens me to say this
But when it rains it pours
How do I survive in the eye of your storm
How can love exist
If there's no one that expresses it
Everybody's hurt
And look around you for the evidence
Suicide is something
That's becoming too repetitive
Do I got the will to keep on going
That's a negative
I'm so understanding I see life from different angles
But these people all around me love to give everyone labels
As if they themselves are angels picture perfect wearing halos
Hypocritical and ignorant until you turn the tables on em'
F**k em' all I never wanna fit in with em' f**k that
I just wanna break for a second where the drugs at
I don't feel a thing when I'm faded and I love that
I forget it all when I'm gone and I love that
(Yeah)
Under such a dark sky
Standing by a pay phone
Examining my fears cuz I know I gotta face those
Everyone's a fraud cuz they pick and choose what they show
I do what I want instead of doing what they say so
Turning into nothingness
I'm stuck in zero gravity
Lately my life alter my perception of reality
I wonder if somebody way above has just imagine me
My mind is playing games and my story is a tragedy
I speak for those who can't
I've been playing devil's advocate
I never wanted anything
I think I'm here on accident
I try to stop the bleeding and I try to be compassionate
But you can't understand me
Unless you knew about abandonment
It's DRB for short motherf**ker that the acronym
I've never been good enough
I'm betting I'm an adequate
They see me is a feeling
Like I'm some sort of an antagonist
I got a black heart and plus my energy is cancer
I went bad to worst and damn the damage hurts
I'm in a sea of flames with every wave it burns
I'm a burden to myself and I got so many concerned
I thought I could be happy but I guess I never learn