Lyrics: Jiayun Zhang
Music: Jiayun Zhang
You said you'll love me when the sun dies
Sun dies
You know we'll separate in due time
Due time
You know I'll hold you in the hellfire
Hellfire
You said you want me to be happier
But you don't know what makes me happier
And I wish you would go blind
And I'll tell you it's all fine
I can't be honest cause it all hurts
Am I a terrible person
Am I bearable just when I pretend to listen
A smile on my face and
I'm thinking about something else
I cared what now
You stop messaging for two months
I know you're busy and I feel dumb
But I still run into a void
And find a new peculiar toy
Turns out I struck gold
And I keep loving things that hurt me
I never thought one day that I'd be
Repeating the same things that at thirteen
I had been promising I'd quit
I lie and say my heart is still here
But I feel numb and bent
Am I now cynical
This smile feels unforgivable
Chasing butterflies that I will never catch
Closing in a bubble you will never match
And I wish you would go blind
And I'll tell you it's all fine
Now I'm honest but it all hurts more
There's nothing I can do to keep you close
If I asked you what we had in common
I'm just met with silence I know
You said you'll love me when the sun dies
Sun dies
You know we'll separate in due time
Due time
You know I'll hold you through the hellfire
Hellfire
I don't think either of us know why
Know why