The meaningless _if

I'm building skyscrapers Auto maybe in might Trying to architect a way To make the wrong things right If I'd spoken louder if I'd stayed a little late If I'd recognize the gravity of a localized fate But if it's just a hollow word A bridge made out of glass That shatters every time I try to let the minutes pass It's a linguistic ghost A grammatical trap A nonexistent shortcut on a dead end map And it's the meaningless if that I'm chasing today A ghost of a chance that was never gonna stay It doesn't change the silence It doesn't move the clock It doesn't find the key for the heavy set lock It's a localized haunting A structural lie A paper white wing that was never meant to fly Yeah the wise is the his and the gone is the gift And the hollowed out center of the meaningless If I've been a savior If you've been a saint We wouldn't be this pictured it's beginning to fade But the chemicals were wrong and the timing was a blur And no amount of wishing changes who we actually were I'm wasting all my oxygen on the hypotheticals flame Adding more syllables to the way to your name It's a rearview mirror on a car with no wheels A desperate projection of the way your heart feels You cannot ring the bell You can't unburn the wood Even if you promised that you'd finally understood The heavy's just a shadow that I'm trying to catch In a room full of darkness with a broken down match And it's the meaningless that I'm chasing a day A ghost of a chance that was never gonna stay It doesn't change the silence It doesn't move the clock It doesn't find the key for the heavy set lock It's a localized haunting a structural lie A paper white wing that was never meant to fly Yeah the was is the years and the gone is the gift And the hollowed out center of the meaningless if If so what if it's not just a word Just a sound that never quite hits the ground Meaningless The sound of it Meaningless