honesty

Don't fxxk with me Do not fxxk with me Especially right now, like for real Yo, ayy Ayy, 9TAILS, yeah ok, whatever I'ma try to be sober for a week (for a week) Tossing turning, I been fxxking up the sheets (Fxxk it up) Why continue when the future's looking bleak (So bleak) Barely living and my chest is scaring me (Fxxk it up) I could give you the attention that you seek (Yeah) I could help a thousand people to their feet (Raise up) I could fxxking save a life but never me (Not me) Don't you try cause there's no way you're saving me (I'm all dead) I could feel heart palpatations happen when I breathe (Oh no) I could feel the acid climbing everytime I eat (Yeah) They say it's a scary life, take this it'll work (Pills) It's been half a year, and I'm only feeling worse (So bad) Residential doctors tell me it's anxiety (Yeah) I could fxxking tell you that now get to helping me (Come on) I wonder what the feeling's like of breathing normally Can't identify the happiness when it's so new to me (It's true) Slow down I can't even smoke now (No way) I been on the same damn, come down (Yeah) Since this time last year This time last year, this time last March now (March now) Hot or cold, I never go out (Fxxk outside) See my friends like once a week at best Cause I'm in my zone now I'm not myself when it's cold out (I am not myself when it's cold outside) yeah ayy ayy I been seeing shadow figures In the corner of my vision I been thinking 'bout my friends And all their thoughts and all their feelings I don't think they really like me (No they don't) And that thought really frightens me (I know they don't) I'm being honest and that doesn't really happen alot (It doesn't happen alot) Doesn't really happen alot, damn (It doesn't happen alot) Yeah, It doesn't, It's true