growing pains (extended)

Tear stained carpet,white knuckled grip I can't forget him or forgive what he did I thought I loved you,but I can't take another hit It's only been six weeks and I'm already like this You took me out and taught me how to skate With blood on my knees, I told you I would be okay But you knew nothing's that easy So you said "Yes" when I asked you to stay 'Cause for the first time, in a long time I don't want you to go away I hate that I can't love you But I'm just in the way But you say I won't be here forever And you'll wait as long as it takes Steal away to meet you when the moon is full Wearing shoes that don't even fit me Hoping you'll think I look cool I hope you do I hope you know that I think you look ****ing cool Staying up to see you when you get off of work But you leave without touching me And you don't know just how bad it hurts When I dreamed for weeks of you being my first I hate that I can't love you But I'm just in the way But you say I won't be here forever And you'll wait as long as it takes