Lyrics: Sadhbh O'Sullivan
Music: Sadhbh O'Sullivan
I'm scared to be honest, 'cause I don't know what you'll say
I don't know what I think you'll think
But I'll make something up anyway
I'm scared to be weak, and just the other day
I read a pamphlet about mental health
But I thought it was meant for someone else
I went to a physiotherapist and I marked my pain as a five
I don't know why I lied, it was probably more like a nine
I do it all the time, do it all the time
I don't know why I do it all the time
I do it all the time, there's a pattern, it's a line-walk on a page
I don't know where it starts and ends
It's a complex work of art that bends and twists
It's a tightrope, but it will not let me fall
Open my guts up, and bare my nerves
So we can see which way the impulse runs
I went to the doctor, she asked me how I felt
I said I'm fine, how do you do?
I didn't know why I lied, but I went home feeling confused
I do it all the time, do it all the time
I don't know why I do it all the time
Did I say I want to change the world?
Most days I just want to be an ordinary girl
With the wind at my back, rain in my tears
Green in my eyes and birds in my ears
I didn't mean to lie
But I do it all the time, do it all the time
I don't know why I do it all the time