Earn Your Faith

by TG
Yeah I promised you the moon and the stars then I crashed the ship Left a hole in your chest where my ghost used to sit Lit a Newport just to watch something burn that wasnt us Ashtray full of half truths and half smoked luck Woke up Tuesday afternoon didnt know what day it was Cracked phone screen lighting up your name but I couldnt pick it up Pizza box on the floor like a monument to my decline Said Id be your rock but I crumbled every single time Remember when I told your mom Id buy you that big house Now Im washing down regret with whatever numbs my mouth Same stained hoodie three days straight circle of a sad routine Replaying every argument I caused like a broken machine You looked at me like I was still the man you first believed in But I was just a tenant in this body barely breathin Fridge humming louder than my will to get up off this couch Your voice cut through the static baby show me the way out You grabbed my face and said I see you in there fighting Stopped my spiral with your hands stopped my soul from dying Now I wake up with a purpose stronger than the pain Let me be the man who earns your faith again Stopped counting empty bottles started counting reps at the gym Traded self destruction for a future I wanna drag you in Got my old man a job interview practiced in the mirror twice First time I said Im sorry and it actually meant something nice The ceiling fan dont look like a countdown to the end It just spins while we laugh about nothing just me and my best friend You pinned a sticky note on the fridge says kill it today babe Now every morning starts with purpose not escaping my own brain waves Enrolled in night class learning skills that build a real career Same hands that couldnt open doors now steering crystal clear Your patience is a garden that I almost let the weeds consume But you watered dead roots till something beautiful could bloom Told me fall seven stand up eight youre not your worst mistake So I rebuilt my foundation stronger after every quake This aint a fairytale recovery some days the shadows win But when you hold my hand the light crawls back in through my skin Got a plan now got a path that aint paved with self disgust You saw a diamond in the rubble and you taught me how to trust You grabbed my face and said I see you in there fighting Stopped my spiral with your hands stopped my soul from dying Now I wake up with a purpose stronger than the pain Let me be the man who earns your faith again