Lyrics: Angelo Di Cori
Music: Sarah Bergeron
Like why my life had to be so ****ed up tho...
Like I ain't ask for this shit
Darkness in my soul
I swear I coulda died
Off a bag xanny's
Almost like I tried
Suicide had me
If you ain't down to ride
Why you holla at me?
Iss darkness in my soul
Need the light to find me
It was me all alone 10 months
In da telly
Then me all alone for 10 months
A cell
If dem walls could talk
Dey words would take you to hell
Almost lined out in chalk
Is how i ended the spell
Took a bat to the dome
Besides the knife to my head
& like zombie i walked
I swear they thought I was dead
I seen the light in the tunnel
Like I could end all my stress
But when I got to the end
My daughter my reached for my hand
Like daddy I really need you
You promised me you'd be there
So How I could say no ?
when Really shes all I have
She musta woken my soul
I guess it must have flew back
Like I dont know how this works
Like is a God really there ?
Like all my prayers
Ain't answered
But yet I'm here in the flesh
Livin & breathin when really
I could be ashes to spread
I guess my purpose iz bigger
But they just dont understand
So I just light up a blunt
& blow da smoke in da air
I swear I coulda died
Off a bag xanny's
Almost like I tried
Suicide had me
If you ain't down to ride
Why you holla at me ?
Iss darkness in my soul
Need the light to find me
I must have looked for answers
In all the wrong places
But dat ain't no excuse
For my bad behavior
Knucklehead since a youth
I aint never listened
That's why the booth
N this music has always been a blessin
The nightmares got me paralyzed
I feel the chokin
Like dem demons
Got a grip on me
I just cant fight em
I cant re write my life
The scar is on my face prove it
But the hardest ones I got
Is all beneath the surface
Who can I trust ?
when those that's closest to me
See me hurtin
But they just can relate
So they just think I really lost it
Can I avoid another tragic ending ?
What's the process ?
Cuz at this point
I'm sick errybody
I dont want this
All I know is my reality is pain
Even through the sunniest & darkest days
I just wanna sprinkle of dat life they have
I dont wanna sell my soul for none of this
I swear I coulda died
Off a bag xanny's
Almost like I tried
Suicide had me
If you ain't down to ride
Why you holla at me ?
Iss darkness in my soul
Need the light to find me