I fade out in all I never fully knew,
The poison was just a painkiller I used to get through.
In dreams, redemption came like a lover true,
But the light never showed before I woke through.
I used to run ahead, fearless and fast,
Giving everything I had, thinking it would last.
But all of it — just a shadow cast.
They talk about my memories,
Like there's nothing left to grieve.
Breathe in, breathe out,
Missed it, missed it,
Dug this grave, dug this grave,
A joking lie becomes the lie,
I swallowed truth just like a pill — and let it die.
Is it far or near — I can't tell anymore,
The walls hum with a bitter, biting roar.
Dust sways in the light, so still and thin,
I'm sinking in the sofa, sinking in.
Lost in a dream, in a dream I drown,
The people leave, their footsteps losing sound.
Relationships — just stagnant water in the ground,
Like painted faces that never turn around.
They talk about my memories,
Like there's nothing left to grieve.
Breathe in, breathe out,
Missed it, missed it,
Dug this grave, dug this grave,
A joking lie becomes the lie,
I swallowed truth just like a pill — and let it die.
Could I have chosen differently back then?
Can "gone" ever be forgiven, and when?
If the first wrong could be unmade and healed,
They wouldn't all be standing in the farther field.
The pills are crushed to dust, like me — just broken trust.
Fading, fading out,
All the hope I held is fading now.
Maybe from the start, the ending was written down.
Breathe in, breathe out,
Missed it, missed it,
Dug this grave, dug this grave,
A joking lie becomes the lie,
I swallowed truth just like a pill — and let it die.
Breathe in, breathe out,
Missed it, missed it,
Dug this grave, dug this grave...