if depression gets the best of me

Lyrics: Zevia Music: Zevia Empty and numb Still can't get past all the sadness and the crumbs I left Help me, I'm scared 'Cause the one thing on my mind is for me to disappear So mama when I die Please hold in your cry Just know that when I'm gone I'll always be right by your side And lover when I leave I know that we don't speak I'm sorry that I failed you But you meant the world to me I lost my sight I still can't see all the places where there might be light I used to stare At the mirror, now I don't 'cause when I do I see a ghost It's not my fault that you feel like I'm so self-centered I'm tryna be better but I feel under the weather So mama when I die Please hold in your cry Just know that when I'm gone I'll always be right by your side And lover when I leave I know that we don't speak I'm sorry that I failed you You deserve better than me (So mama when I die) Hi mom, it's me (Please hold in your cry) I just wanted to call and say I love you (Just know that when I'm gone) And I know that that's random (I'll always be right by your side) But I feel like I don't say it enough so here I am (And lover when I leave) And I hope you are okay (I know that we don't speak) Um, yeah, I love you mom (I'm sorry that I failed you) Okay bye-bye (You deserve better than me)