Music: India Anne Parkman/Scarlet Grace Byford/James Earp
I lay here on the kitchen floor, staring
At the ceiling
numb feeling
I turn my phone off to block out all the noise, but
I can't escape it
I can't take it
And every night
there's a war
in my head
And it's so paralyzing
And nobody knows what I'm like
I'm self-sabotaging
'cause I'm always too scared to try
Wanna be a lover
wanna be a fighter
But all I ever do is hide and f**king lie here
I'm a stranger in my own eyes
wishing I were someone better at my life
It's so paralyzing
oh oh
Keep faith is what everybody tells me
it's not forever
it gets better
but every night
there's still a war
in my head
and it's so paralyzing
and nobody knows what I'm like
I'm self-sabotaging
'cause I'm always too scared to try
Wanna be a lover
wanna be a fighter
But all I ever do is hide and f**king lie here
I'm a stranger in my own eyes
wishing I were someone better at my life
It's so paralyzing
oh oh
I try to pick myself back up
keep my demons out of touch
like maybe that could be enough
to keep me hanging on
so every night
there's a war
I keep fighting
and it's so paralyzing
and nobody knows what I'm like
I'm self-sabotaging
'cause I'm always too scared to try
Wanna be a lover
wanna be a fighter
But all I ever do is hide and f**king lie here
I'm a stranger in my own eyes
wishing I were someone better at my life
And it's so paralyzing
oh oh