Will I get used to this
Always having dreams of where I die
Waking panicked half alive
Broken bones in my fingers
Crawling out of bed just to survive
To exhausted cannot fight
Don’t wanna be this
Don’t wanna be that
Yea this life is fvcking mine
Get back and let me decide
Feels like I'm just cursed in this body
Hold a second give me five
Can I fvcking feel alive
Cus I don’t understand this
I don’t understand this
I think the pressures getting through to me
I think I'm stuck in a place between
I'm sick of begging fvcking on my knees
Cus I would never wish this
Would never wish this
On fvcking anyone who fvcking breathes
You’ll live a life only filled with deceit
Now paranoid my only enemy is me
Tho nothing feels real online
I live there all the fvcking time
If only they really knew me
I’d hate to really know me
Tho nothing feels real online
I live there all the fvcking time
If only they really knew me
I’d hate to really know me
But it's as real as everywhere else
But it's as real as everywhere else
I know I ain't the same motherfvcker
That I used to be
Now it's white wine sippin
Just to put myself to sleep
Fvck, if you saw memories
You’d be under deep
Thankful I’m alive
But it hurts
Fvck I cannot breathe
I am breaking
Someone save me
Riv and seph
Got my back
Ima make it
I can shake this
Feeling of abasement
Knowing I got homies I can trust
Ima make it
I don’t understand this
I don’t understand this
I think the pressures getting through to me
I think I'm stuck in a place between
I'm sick of begging fvcking on my knees
Cus I would never wish this
Would never wish this
On fvcking anyone who fvcking breathes
You’ll live a life only filled with deceit
Now paranoid my only enemy is me
I don’t understand this
I don’t understand this
I think the pressures getting through to me
I think I'm stuck in a place between
I'm sick of begging fvcking on my knees
Cus I would never wish this
Would never wish this
On fvcking anyone who fvcking breathes
You’ll live a life only filled with deceit
Now paranoid my only enemy is me